here i am on a blog i have shoved out of priority. pushing past comparison and forgetting that i don't have a pretty blog header, that i live in the least exotic place in mormon society, that i have dishes in the sink to be cleaned, and that i deeply have enjoyed a blogging sabbatical--pushing past all that...
i'm here. i'm tyring to be here. dutifully trying to get past thoughts of me. i'm here for my mom who really would love it if i updated. i'm here to get out of myself.
we had an early thanksgiving dinner last night with family. we rounded the table, each sharing our thoughts of gratitude. i'm grateful i can write on an albeit ugly blog. i am grateful i know how to write. i'm grateful to be humbled, massively humbled and more imperfect than ever. i'm grateful i have prayer to talk to my father every day. beyond grateful knowing he hears me. i'm grateful for a child who makes my purpose on earth so rich, clear, and challenging. i'm grateful for a husband who would summit everest for me and for whom i love more than ever because of the difficulty we've fought together. i'm grateful for dance and figuring it out, one day at a time. i'm grateful for change and the vibrancy it brings to life. i'm grateful for the stagnant that i wish would change and the patience it squeezes out of me. i'm grateful for family and the laboratory they provide for me to make real what i believe. i'm grateful for new socks, a ready waiting salad in the fridge, a generous bag of lent clothes for our boy, our farmer's market bought indian corn, a non stuffy nose that i used to have back in october, and a borrowed toy that lights up copes eyes. i'm grateful for the best souls on earth who somehow have become friends and could well up my eyes with tears just thinking of the times they have stood by me and hailed me with warm hearts and friendly hands. i'm grateful for a dad who gets to meet my little not so baby boy in a month. i'm grateful for the blessings i see and the blessings i don't. i'm grateful for family i see and family i don't. i'm grateful for talents i have and talents i don't. i'm grateful for a god who loves me when i don't. life is inexpressibly good right now and always because of that.
here's a clip, that gave me something to blame this lame post on. endure to end of the clip- it's supremely worth it.
8 comments:
so not lame post. so beautiful. you have such an influence on everyone who comes in contact with you. you are amazing.
Mar, I was so glad to see you were on top of my list because you posted! We miss you guys so much, but I'm happy to see you are doing well. You have always reminded me there is so much to be grateful for. We still need to meet up one of these days, but I know the holidays are incredibly busy. But please promise me we will soon after. Have a good thanksgiving!
Welcome back my love. Your words are always wise and inspiring. You are a remarkable soul. I love you. Can I be your little shadow and learn from you every day please? Ooooh, actually, I do have some questions to ask you, but that'll be at a later time... like after you return from Brazil. You rock, Mare. And you always will. xoxoxo
Thank you for posting again Mare! I have missed reading your blog with its uplifting and inspiring posts.:) Seeing you was so wonderful. You are one of those people that I feel so blessed to have met and become friends with. You are wonderful and I'm grateful for you!
i am...SOOOOO glad you're back. who cares about the header? every time i read your blog i am edified and uplifted. you inspire people to be better marilee. your spirit emanates from your words. it's clear that you live as a disciple of christ, and you inspire me to do the same. I. LOVE. YOU. thank you for being you. keep it up. :)
(ps. have you read missionary work and the atonement by elder holland?)
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Thank you, dear mare. I love you and miss you all, love mom (far away, but close in spirit)
Yaayyy! You're back to bless my life (and billions of others). Such a beautiful post, naturally. xoxoxo
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